welcome to amelie world, where a very special quiz is waiting for you...
1. who texted who first?
2. what day did we go to the mall?
3. what kind of icecream did i get then?
4. the name of the song i listened to on the way to the pi party?
oh my god im getting so many butterflies thinking about the pi party. driving with you to get those ingredients (so happy it was just us, using every cell in my body to not be awkward) that beat that played on the movie for ever while talking to you, asking to lean against the chair... AAAAA!!! such an amazing memory.
5. what creature we saw outside that night?
6. my favorite part of the night?
7. what was my presentation for you on?
8. how long did it take me to ask you on a date?
9. your response to me asking if i could send you updates on my chicago trip?
PS do u remember this quiz??? hehe
10. weezer raditude track 10?
11. what creature was found at the con?
12. what spell did i cast on the way back?
oh my god, the con. what an incredibly exciting and scary time in my life. so much uncertainty with how you felt about me, and the knowledge that a date was coming up once i got back. the date was a big deal to me but i couldn't be certain if it was to you at the time, so i was absolutely freaking out! "does she like me? does she feel the same? what does she think of me???" so many questions i asked myself a lot. I remember asking everyone i was staying with for advice on how to be normal for my date. i was worried my sillyness would push you away. everyone told me to be myself though and im so glad i found you, someone who is just as silly as me. its so interesting looking back on that time compared to now. right now i feel close to you and so smiley and in love that i can jump in your arms and feel like im home right away (unrelated to the fact that usually when this happens im literally home) but back then, things were so different! we were like different people! the future seemed so scary but so exciting. and now that im here, im so glad how everything turned out, and i've never been more excited for the future. my future with you.
13. the name of me and zachs game?
14. the color of my eyes?
15. one of my favorite bands?
16. my favorite fruit?
17. when i was a kid, what did i drop into the lake?
18. what color was my hair as a very young kid?
19. the movie we watched together on our first date?
20. the light which illuminated us alone?
our first date was such a dreamlike event. every aspect, from the art museum, to the kyoto, to the movie, to our kiss felt like a dream. i remember being so nervous at kyoto i felt like i was going to throw up! you're just so amazing... so funny, fun, adorable, cool... way out of my league i felt. im so glad that things went the way they did though! watching howls moving castle was a magical experience. i remember wanting to move closer to you the whole time and finally got the courage to do so and it was such a scary and amazing experience. and us kissing at the end, surround by dark and dim light, it felt as if time had stopped. that moment lasted both forever and not long enough. i have so many butterflies thinking about it. and then the second date!!! omg??? a graveyard? that was such a cool thing like oh my god. your beautiful dress, the gothic things around the blanket, the silly polaroids i still think i don't look good in, every moment with you seems to be so magical and dreamlike. i am so happy to have you in my life i can't express that enough!!!
21. one of my favorite songs?
22. name each species of itemlable creature i have!!! ill give you the first letter for each.
P, O, S, M, H, Y, Mu
23. what two autographs do i have?
24. most terrifying i have ever done?
25. a sport im very bad at but did my best despite being terrified because i wanted to spend more time with you?
26. my favorite cryptid?
27. the game i was so excited for?
28. the best choice i ever made (hint, feb)
29. the most important day to me, like, ever?
my love, sweetheart, everything, baby, pebble, bean, creature, blinding ray of light?
Amelie, being with you has been truly been amazing. despite just 2ish 3ish months of knowing you going by, you've made just about every single day special. you've gotten me out of my comfort zone to try new things, whether it be food, latin dancing, or inspiring me to make choices i normally wouldn't like going paddleboarding at random. we've been to so many places ive almost lost count. skyzone, graveyard, coffee shops, parties, swimming, and so, so many more. you truly feel like my other half. you bring out aspects of me i didn't know exist. you seem to know what im thinking when im thinking it, sometimes even before, and you have such a silly energy that ive never seen before. you're so fun to be around amelie, you always make me laugh no matter what. and you're so fucking talented!!! i can't stress that enough! you've written a long book (and still writing!) writing a long script, made a graphic novel, have such awesome and impressive animations, have a fucking amazing indescribably cool music career with insanely impressive music videos to match, and you've done so much more.
i really look up to you. you're an amazing person and there's nobody else i would rather spend my time with, nobody else id rather be with. you support me when im down, and make me feel safe, and thats something i truly appricate more that words can say. you've taught me that a relationship doesn't have to be abuse and pain. you've taught me it can be something amazing, something healthy, something that makes me wake up in the morning smiling, thinking of you and something that keeps me happy all day just by knowing you exist.
when i first met you i felt like a really broken human. i had been through very painful and taxing abuse and didn't really ever think of being in a relationship again. getting to know you, getting closer to you, learning who you are and doing things with you, a thought slowly started to form in my head."oh my god. i have feelings for her. shes so absolutely amazing. maybe, just one last time, i can be in a relationship. she's worth the risk of getting hurt. if i get super hurt again, then never again." and oh my god amelie. you've shown me love. true love. you've shown me safety, you've shown me amazing days each and every day, whether we just talk on the phone a bit, or spend morning to night together. im so glad all the events in my life happened. the good. the bad. the happy and the pain. because it all lead me to you. and i would do it a million times over as long as it means at the end of it all it will lead to you. i love you, amelie. not just as a thing that people say. not just in a maybe i might way or something like that. i truly love you and each time i say it i mean every word, every letter, every line stroke to spell it and every keypress to type it. i mean it with my whole heart when i say i love you.
